Ben is confused with himself !!!

recently, I got myself very emo easily ...
I just don't understand myself...
How could I get mad or not satisfied towards something so easily?

Last week, b4 I got back my econs results, I was kinda confident that I could score at least more than 40/50...But somehow, something just went wrong with some part of my answer and I only got 36/40...Although it was not that bad but still there is a difference

The problems does not just stop there...I was jealous of FEW of my friends where their results are better than mine or almost same grade as mine...
Some of you might think I some sort of stupid person to think such way but the reason I got angry is because I put much more effort than them which kinda make very frustrated to get poorer results than them...

I was angry at myself how on earth I could get such results...after that when my lecturer wanna have a look at everyone paper and see whether is there any possibilities to add mark, I was like "i don't want to add any marks"....I'm to furious at the moment!!

I already tried my best not to think such way but somehow I just couldn't get over with it...
But as time flies throughout the week, I adapted to the reality of it...

I always asked myself ," Is it that important to compare yourself with others? "
I think is not important to compare because GOD creates everyone with different ability where they are good at...
My mum always taught me not to compare because what I have, others might not have it
Same goes to others who have something that I might not have it...

So, just stick with who you are and live the best out of yourself....(*y do I sounds like I'm the one who giving advices ? ) =.=

Besides, there is also another personal problem which I've been encountered for quite some time...
Whenever I saw a guy friend of mine have a huge gang of guys friends, I would felt very dissapointed and sad about myself....
To be honest, I don't a gang of guys friends to hangout with....
I always wanted to have a gang of guys friends to hangout like go for lunch lar, movie lar or just hang around like that...
I think it would be fun to have a gang like that...I'm envious of others friends of mine...

I myself will always revolving around with MANY female friends than guys
Not to say is a problem to have more female friends, only that I think it would be better to balance out between both...
Even my parents also complain to me and said "Why all your friends girls? No other friends besides girls meh?"
I really dunno how to answer their question although it was just a simple question...

I really appreciate all my female friends...
But would I turn to be an imbalance human being??
For example, I would tend to have more conversation between girls than boys and sometime will be a lil bit 'GIRLISH' behavior which I don't realize?
I also don't know why, am I born to have more of the feminine side??
Many questions arisen that kinda bothered me lately...

So whenever I saw those boyband like arashi, super junior,news, v6, tvxq, I wanted to be like them to have a bunch of brother like relationship with others...
Take arashi and super junior as an examples...

Arashi were together for 10 years and their bond between each others are stronger than ever..
As for Super Junior with 13 members of them, definitely conflicts will exist, but they are still very close...
I mean they are really like brothers to each others although they are not blood related...
I really respect and adore them to have such good relationship among each other...
This is one of the reasons why I like boyband so much!! =.=
Not to say I'm gay or anything because they are good to each others and take good care of others which inspired me alot and makes me look up to them as an idol!!!

Ben ar ben...u really need to change yourself a bit lor...
I also dunno what to do....maybe some advice will do good for me!!!

My recent J-POP and K-POP collection

Its been quite some time since I update about my collection...

Once again, I've been conned AGAIN by BEE regarding my CDs arrival on last Thursday...

She asked me out to mamak because she said she wanna drink MILO AIS...
Then I was like 'At home no MILO kar?? ' She said she miss it =.=

She come and pick me up then we head straight to BistroAfter long chat and tons of laughter with her and Chii Min, she sent me home.

Actually I do think that she might hide it again at besides the driver's sit drawer there

Cuz she did that once b4 for my previous CD...

Then I think twice, cannot be she hide it there again mar...

Guess what, when I reached home, she handed me a plastic bag with 2 parcel inside from behind the driver'seat...

Then again, I was SPEECHLESS...I didn't come across that she might hiding behind... =.=

By the way, so happy that my stuff had arrived safely..haha...

Previously I still have the thinking that my stuff might had lost cuz its been 2 weeks since it shipped out.

THANKS AGAIN, MY BEE :)

PICTURES ^.^

Finally...after all those waiting.. It is on my HAND now...

out of print already...precious!!





total 3 CDs with 42 tracks...


Iza Now concert DVD...can't wait to watch it

the concert DVD with small booklet


another my 'LOVE'!! SNSD's 2nd Mini Album - Genie




recommended tracks - genie, etude, my child, and one year later(this particular song is a duet within snsd's jessica and SHINee's onew, damn nice ballad)



sooyoung*yuri*seohyun



*cheers* ...love them all...

tiffany looks extremely gorgeous here

taeyeon..looks stunnig as usual

sexy ladies *tiffany*Yoona*Jessica*

V6's GUITLY (ver .B)

GUILTY (ver.A) They exudes sophistication and sleekness in the video 'GUILTY'

another no. 1 single for them....YAY


super junior M - 1st album (ME) *bought this sungei wang 2 weeks ago...

i'm impressed with their chinese pronunciation...their songs are great too

SNSD first album - BABY BABY (repackaged ver.)


definitely looking forward for their future release

inner layout

the booklet...all of them are cute :)

they looks really natural here

SUPER JUNIOR M 1st mini album - SUPER GIRL (korea ver.) with 2 bonus track (super girl and blue tomorrow in korean language)

hankyung looks damn sophisticated andhandsome in black suit :)

henry also looks cute in it...also DONG HAE...haha

the inner booklet

ryeowook looks kinda funny with those glasses

the poster...I really wanna put it on my wall but I'm scared with damages on it =.= (this was free when I bought from sungei wang. But if buy from yesasia it cost RM100+ togetjher with the album)


2007 SUMMER SMTOWN (the reason I bought this particular SMTOWN CD is because Super Junior's Happiness song and video are in it) ..but others song by BoA, TVXQ, Kangta are great too

back cover of the SMTOWN album...pretty much considered rare now!! since it was out of print in yesasia...LUCKY ME

all my arashi's collection...still growing

all these concert by arashi are pure amazing!!

arashi's concert DVDs

completed their albums...

Next target would be

1. Super Junior Happy - Cooking ? Cooking ! (mini album)

2. Super Junior - Super Show Concert DVD

3. Ayumi Hamasaki - Sunrise/Sunset - Love is ALL- (single)

4. Arashi PV Collection DVD

*Regarding about Arashi's PV Collection DVD, it would be released in Japan next month. It contained all the music video from A.RA.SHI until Crazy Moon - kimi wa muteki- .

The PV collection DVD is a definitely must buy for all arashi's fans especially to those who unable to collect all the limited edition single which feature music video from them...Seriously can't wait...I think the DVD contain about 33 videos...

Tanjung Sepat Trip...

I should have make a post about the trip since last week when I returned from Tanjung Sepat but last week until this week was extremely busy...at least now still managed to slack a bit...

Well, Poulina, Shu Wan, Jarod and myself had our trip to tanjung sepat on last wednesday...I meet Poulina at Klang KTM station around 8a.m. Then we left Klang to continue our journey once Jarod had arrived.... (Shu Wan is the driver of the day)

We basically passed by Banting then to Morit...When we reach Morit, we actually stopped by Morit Beach and have a look (* actually i was looking for toilet, if not we wouldn't stopped at there). One particular thing that suprised me the most is that the toiler there extremely CLEAN and WELL MAINTAINED :)

After that, we continued our journey for another half an hour and we finally reached Tanjung Sepat ..

we registered ourselves at the local police station to infom them that we are INTI student who are doing research with approval letter from our lecturer

After that, we headed straight to the coffee shop which is owned by one of Shu Wan's relatives...

We asked quite some question from Shu Wan's aunty regarding some info about the residents that lived in Tanjung Sepat...We also did recording, it is impossible for us to drop down every single word she said...Shu Wan's aunty also treated us with their home made fragrant coffee...The coffee was smooth and the price was cheap (less that RM1.00)

they were busying discussing...

i'm the one taking pic

the fragrant coffee...NICE....

Later on, we proceeded to our next stop which is also the Hai Yew Heng pao store because Tanjung Sepat is famous for the pao...Pictures will explain more, enjoy!!

outside of the store which manufacture to pao..

ready to be steam!!

the flour dough for making to pao

one of the filling for the pao...Mui Choy (salted vegetables)

the price list

some of famous tv personality visited this place just for the pao...

even Jason also been here b4

our pao!! we ordered 2 mui choy pao & 2 pork meat pao.

look at the mui choy...at first i was not convinced, after the 1st bite, LOVE IT...

the pork meat pao with EGGS...still preferred the mui choy filling

Later on, we also visited a lingchi mushroom factory...The factory cultivate variety of mushroom but they are famous for their lingchi and their lingchi based products...We was told that lingchi is extremely bitter and it has many medicinal properties which benefits human...

Some of the lingchi based product are weird such as lingchi toothpaste, lingchi shampoo, lingchi conditioner and many more...I was like ' what happened to my hair after using the lingchi product, will it grow lingchi on my hair?' ( dumbo benny =.=)

Ganofarm Homestay

this is unique...pink mushroom and 100% edible

pretty right...Yellow mushroom, also edible


shu wan with those bitter taste lingchi.. XD

lingchi...not 'leng' at all

mushroom chips!! I wonder how it taste like
lingchi honey with apple cider... =.=
lingchi with honey
the lingchi drink...some are a lil bitter

Later on, we also went to pig farm and it was one thing i've ever experienced...

The thing that bother me the most is the stench of the pig...Somehow, the stench of the pig are unbearable for me and Jarod. But the girls can tolerate which kinda make both of us embarrased...I even noticed death pigs arounds...

I go to the pig farm just for the sake of my research project. Otherwise, I would not go again because I almost puke because of the stench... :(

the worker are feeding the pigs

cute but dirty

piglets

look at the huge pig head...

I bet I stinks like hell after finishing the pig farm...Somemore the weather is freaking hot...

In addition, we are hungry as helll...We can't wait to feed ourself with some awesome seafood..

Luckily, we almost acquired every information needed....So, Shu Wan's aunty brought us to a seafood restaurant to have dinner... *prepare to get jealous, readers*

clams...the gravy is *heaven*

deep friend prawn...

deep friend vegetables..someho similar to vegetables tempura

fu chow fishball with tong fun...there are minced pork meat inside..

fish ball noodles fry with dark sauce...My fav among all dishes!!!

Our final stop is the lovers bridge..nothing much though..the view and scenery was nice

the striking sunlight =.=